Ghostdogs

Ghostdogs

A journey through grief with autism.

Alan Greenwell

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Focussed

Over Christmas Tam has enough to deal with. I try my best to protect him and show him all of the love that he could want. We have as much fun as we can and when fun is not welcome we prop each other up and work through it.

Alan Greenwell

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Keeping Warm

It’s been a long time since I have posted anything. Not that I haven’t wanted to say anything or had anything to write about, it’s just been a real difficult time for Tam and myself. I have been writing a journal twice a day to try to get a handle on things but to be honest what I have written in that journal I would not post. So right now I have decided to post a few new things to bring Tam’s journey up to date. So over the next week I will be posting an update on how…

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Tam & Mammy

It’s a week since Tams birthday and it has been a real tough week. Tam was sent home on his birthday from school. He was full of anxiety and was asking me to swap his birthday presents for mammy. Heartbreaking. The truth is I would give everything for him to have his mammy.

Alan Greenwell

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Sunrise

For the longest of times both me and Bev would ask the support staff at school and in the medical profession - “when will Tam speak?”. None of them would give an answer. Now I get why. Every child is different and every autistic child is even more different.

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Tam & Mammy

Shitty long month - Tam been ill. Lots of bites. Difficult to move forward. Feel like I am in quicksand.

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Mantra

Thought I would upload this little file of me and Tam doing an abridged versions of Tams calming mantra. Enjoy

Alan Greenwell

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misty morning

Nocturnal life is common amongst geeks. I have stayed up until the early hours and then got up at 6am and headed off to work, with a couple of hours of sleep. As I have got older, I have become less and less able to do it. Now, as a single parent of Tam, I have had to learn how to do it again. 

Alan Greenwell

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Tam

Its Sunday at 11pm and Tam has been asleep on and off all day. 30 minutes here and hour there. A couple of hours ago he threw up. Still not sure if it was stress or ill. I can normally tell by the smell but this time I think it was half and half. Let’s put it this way, I cannot send him to school.

Alan Greenwell

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Tam

I am going to start off by saying I am nothing special. I am a dad nothing more nothing less. My brain is analytical, it’s good at pattern matching and fire fighting. Give me a bad IT situation and I will find a way to get it back to a good situation. I know I have faults, some major faults and I work on them every day.

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Tam & Mammy

Half term is over, respite was a success and the first 2 days at school took place. First day went fine, first night was great. My little lad was full of fun and knackered. He slept well. Second morning went ok but had a lot of tears as I sent him off to school. All however changed tonight.

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