A while a go I read Neil Peart’s book Ghost Rider - travels on the healing road. In it he talked about his tiny little soul and the alter-egos that he had. He was grieving for his daughter and wife who died over a short period of time. In case you don’t know the name Neil Peart he was the drummer in a band called Rush. If I say “Tom Sawyer” or “Spirit of Radio” you might know them songs. Anyway I could really align with Neil about the feelings he was having.…

At 3pm today 13 years ago the world welcomed Tam Samuel Greenwell. My beautiful son. Bev had to have an emergency C section as Tam had wiggled himself into nearly hanging himself on the umbilical cord. Kids!!!

Well it’s the 20th of September today and we have 2 birthdays out of the way (Bevs and mine) with Tams in 4 days.

Over my adult life I have pretty much had a camera all of the time. Canon, Nikon, Olympus, Sony all kinds of cameras. I have used them for my own personal interests and also for work. I have always enjoyed photography and having the wonderful time of watching Tam grow up and the love he had for his mammy was great subject matter.

I am going to start off by saying I am nothing special. I am a dad nothing more nothing less. My brain is analytical, it’s good at pattern matching and fire fighting. Give me a bad IT situation and I will find a way to get it back to a good situation. I know I have faults, some major faults and I work on them every day.

2 Years have passed and you are missed more every day my love. Its 2 years since we touched and talked and those 2 years have been the hardest of our lives.

Its giftmas day. No decorations no wishing a happy giftmas.

Today should have been Tams last day at school before the christmas break. It ended up not being that way.This morning he was spun up and running on empty after not getting much sleep. The time came to get ready and all hell broke loose. He got really upset and screaming. Asking for tight cuddles and asking ‘stay with daddy’. I pushed on.

Its been a while since I have posted anything to the blog.

One of the best ways for me to learn is to reflect on my actions and look for progress in as many ways as I can. This process can be a bit rough as I am no where near perfect and if the truth be known I am a pretty faulty version of what is commonly known as the human race.

This is probably going to be the hardest post to write from a personal point of view.

Wednesday and Thursday this past week Tam has shown some very difficult behaviour at school.